Sep 6, 2017

Finding Peace Amidst Fear, Destruction, and Chaos

The Pacific Northwest and parts of California are on fire, Houston and multiple areas of the Gulf Coast are drowning in flood waters of Hurricane Harvey, Tropical Storm Jose' and Hurricane Irma, and a multitude of earthquakes and even once dormant volcanoes are beginning to erupt with brimstone and fury.

Add in the massive effect of Hurricane Maria as it hit Puerto Rico and its nearby island nations.S ince the storm made landfall on September 20, Hurricane Maria has wreaked havoc on the island, causing a level of widespread destruction and disorganization paralleled by few storms in American history.

There is disruption of peace and equanimity triggered by a series of egoistic madmen who are lashing out with bombs ,physically with their words and deeds, and egotistically with the need for control and power and threatening equanimity, equality, any shred of empathetic compassion, and the destruction of not only our safety, but potentially the very existence of our planet.

Many of us are evacuating our homes, worrying about the very lives of our friends and family members..continually protesting the unfair treatment of human beings, animals, and the environment that supports our very lives... and Mother Earth is screaming.

It is hard to find peace of heart in the midst of such fear, anger, destruction, and chaos.

There must be peace in the nations.
If there is to be peace in the nations,
There must be peace in the cities.
If there is to be peace in the cities,
There must be peace between neighbors.
If there is to be peace between neighbors,
There must be peace in the home.
If there is to be peace in the home,
There must be peace in the heart.


Chinese philosopher
6th century bce

With life's many challenges ever increasing, how do we find peace in this horribly troubled world, this universal psyche that chooses the negative over the positive, the masculine over the feminine, the warring over the peace making and bridge building?

It must be personal as well as national, universal as well as international. We must care, and care deeply about one another in any and all life forms and we must use our hearts, our energies, and our time to do good, say good, and be good to the best of each moment's ability.

As always, I have been helping family members, helping causes in my community and beyond, offering assistance how and where I can to those to need with physical, emotional, or spiritual support. It is all any of us can do with our own lives perhaps threatened, our homes perhaps in danger, our own hearts hurting so deeply that we can barely breathe much less offer breath to another.

And when it is all too intense, when fear threatens to push into the boundaries of faith, hope, and charity...and out into fear and chaos...I go into my own heart, and I focus in a deeply meditative, prayerful,  and spiritual way of doing those things that bring me peace.

We are the lifeboat that lifts up others. We must keep that life boat, healthy, spiritually wealthy, and wise with the inner wisdom of our intuitive and collective hearts.


Wearing my face mask even within my own home to shelter my physical being from burning throat, stinging eyes of the smoke of almost 300 Pacific Northwest fires that have destroyed 300,000 acres of forested land among our states. Fires that feel like Old Testament hellfire and brimstone, that has filled every bit of my once beautiful sky with grey white smoke to the very ends of the horizon and depths of the earth.

I create a space within me, within my spirit, to maintain love not fear, creativity not despair, manifestation of good not retreat from the powerful forces of change and transition through damage and destruction that is wrecking havoc everywhere.

And to be honest, I still want to reject the evil of our universal shadow that is the now the manifest evil of wanton destruction.  Single handily, with one throw of a firecracker, one fire alone in Oregon has destroyed countless acres of beautiful old growth forests and caused the evacuation of cities along the Columbia River Gorge.

This fire was not the change and transition that Mother Earth, herself is expressing... as hard for us to understand ...might even be seen as her release buttons for survival. If there is too much pressure within the Earth, it erupts in volcanoes or crack opens in earthquakes.

If there is too much pressure within us, we may erupt as well. And the damage we may do to others may be just as great emotionally as volcanoes and earthquakes are physically. If we see Mother Earth as Gaia..a living breathing entity with her trees and plants as her lungs if you will, then Gaia is losing her breath, just as we are by the ensuing smoke or by being filled with fear, are losing ours.

But in this process of death and destruction there is still an opening up in our world and our world view to transition and archetypal consciousness and the ascension of the human soul from one of the innate and deeply genetic darkness that has prevailed throughout time... to one of full growth of the soul's innate potential to do and be pure goodness.

It opens us up with first with our seeing all that we do not want nor want to be or do and then to the infinite possibilities of our combined thoughts of what we do want our world to be. It may happen in an instant there are infinite possibilities of outcomes from any action or even from any reaction. Fate can hang on an instant and fate can be changed in an instant.

We listen to our gut instincts, we listen to our hearts beating together and we listen to the still small voice urging us into being and doing what is good and not sinful..sin being an ancient archery term meaning 'missing the mark'.

I remind myself... over and over again... just how resilient the human spirit is. I remember just how patterns in nature, time and history balance the yin and the yang of change and transition to restore harmony both inside and out.

And yes, there will be loss. As time moves on through the upcoming decades of climate change and all that comes with it ..massive, massive loss. Loss of arable and therefore life supporting land, of nature's beauty,

 I grieve for the many losses now and to come.  Loss of hope, of faith and worst of all of love and charity. But for now; love, hope, and charity are rising up to fight the endless battle for survival. And survive we shall. Love, hope, and charity are rising up as we look at the Dreamers and see them as we see our own children. Love, hope and charity are rising as the flood waters rise, and we rush to anothers aid as if they were one of our own..for they are.

And for them..our children and our grandchildren and God/Goodness willing our great and great great..on and on grandchildren... we must act for the good of all and not the good of the elite few with the money and wherewithal at their personal disposal to thumb their noses and push their going nuclear buttons at the rest of us.

We are all connected. We are all part of one another. My microscopic  atoms are merged with yours like stars in the cosmos. The pain that i feel is my pain, your pain, all pain. The fouled air that I am breathing will become the fouled air and the foul breathing of yours. When we drop a bomb on one country, its repercussions and loss of awareness and love... are felt by ours. We are perpetrators and we are victims. The winds of time and change merge into one and so do we.

 There is a purpose onto heaven for all of this. It doesn't have to be ours to understand but there it is. And part of that is the destruction of the old to make space for the new. As someone who is old... that gives me pause.

But as someone who loves her children and her grandchildren more than she loves herself, I am more than willing to go through whatever I have to in hopes that someday, a heaven on earth can become possible and a newer kinder, more caring and loving world might exist.

But I am so deeply sad that it has had to come to this.

  I rage, I sorrow, I grieve...and then I put on my face mask and talk to my cat and my chickens. I stand amidst the unbelievable golden forest of my sunflowers that radiate love and hope and steadfast determination to grow..not just where they are planted but to self-seed through the grace of the wind and its travelers the birds who spread messages of hope and peace and rebirth.

And I remember beauty, and I remember hope, and I remember goodness and compassion and most of all I remember how love is the balm and the hope and the promise.

We do what we can, when we can to spread joy, to give gifts from our hearts and from our hands and then we do the same for ourselves.


To be creative means to be in love with life.
You can be creative only if you love life enough that you want to enhance its beauty,
you want to bring a little more music to it,
a little more poetry to it,
a little more dance to it.


How do we choose to feel peace, make peace, be peace in our own hearts? It starts with each of us as individuals, each moment of every single day. And it is not easy but we can do it.

By Clarissa Pinkola Estes 

For many of us we sew for or we have discovered that sewing ....or art, or writing, or poetry or other passions.. like praying. We go into the deepest place of focus, the zone of creativity and becoming one in both the manifest and unmanifest... and we do and we make good things.

“To sew is to pray. Men don't understand this.
They see the whole but they don't see the stitches.
They don't see the speech of the creator in the work of the needle.

We mend. We women turn things inside out and set things right.
We salvage what we can of human garments and piece the rest into blankets.
Sometimes our stitches stutter and slow.

Only a woman's eyes can tell.
Other times, the tension in the stitches might be too tight because of tears, but only we know what emotion went into the making.

Only women can hear the prayer.”

Louise Erdrich
Four Souls"

 It's all in our attitude. And it starts with each of us. It's not always easy to do, and we do it as we do all things. If there is to be peace in the world, there needs to be peace within you. We are all connected and this world is one.


We feel the disruption, the lack of peace, the anger and separation and we use those shadow or dark emotions as a catalyst. A catalyst to see the other as ourself. And to ask ourself, it this 'other' that upsets me so much, if these "other things" that upset me so, if the "lack of power" that I am it mine or is it the others to do with as they need to in order to learn and to grow?

"Refuse to fall down.
If you cannot refuse to fall down,
refuse to stay down.

If you cannot refuse to stay down
lift your heart toward heaven
and like a hungry beggar,
ask that it be filled,
and it will be filled.

You may be pushed down.
You may be kept from rising.
But no one can keep you
from lifting your heart
toward heaven —
only you.

It is in the midst of misery
that so much becomes clear.
The one who says nothing good
came of this,
is not yet listening.

refuse to fall down"

~Clarissa Pinkola Estés~
Excerpted from The Faithful Gardener: A Wise Tale About That Which Can Never Die,

Let that control go. It is not of  god/good. It is not of devil/evil. It just is. Let it go and be good in your heart, in your love, in your care of all others..and start with today.

And remember, you are at war inside of you to feel the war outside of you. So, often that is the catalyst that begins the war ..this day you work on you. Don't be dismayed. Go into the loving flow of kindness and be the higher you that you wish to project out into the world.

No matter your beliefs, you know this core want to be a beacon of love for yourself and inside of yourself so you can shine that light outwards to "others" and to the world

Peace in your heart creates peace in your world. And that is your soul's create this peace by doing and being what you are called to do...wherever you are, at whatever level of learning you are. You are surrounded by loving helpers and all of us are here for you.

  I  am going within the most basic elements of heart and home and gifts of the spirit and finding peace in my days. I am spending my time with family, with my beautiful, precious and beloved grandchildren, with time for nature, time for rest and prayer, and yes..even time for my chickens!

And above all else, I am spending time with the true me, the spiritually manifested being filled with love that I know myself to be. I am doing my best to focus on the best world I know we can have, the best people I know each of us can be, the best hopes and dreams and wishes for full and caring lives for all of us. And as I focus, and I pray and meditate for peace and love and hope and dreams, I hope you take a moment each and every single day and do the same.

Together we can create a new world, a new way of seeing, believing, and being.

"Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I'll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass the world is too full to talk about." 



 It was brought to my attention that for quite some time, parts of my blog were in gibberish. Yes, it was! Coyote the Tricksters has great fun with, and through me. And energetically, when I am not grounded, I spark and weird things happen with bio-magnetic electric energy! So, that, therefore, was all me ;-) 

And then of course, I am both a talker and a writer and massively sleep deprived, I gibber and auto correct loves me too much But by now, my gibber has been saved as the algorithms must think that is my language, spelling, and wording of choice. Apparently it is. Ha!

Michele Bilyeu Creates With Heart and Hands as she shares her imaginative, magical, and healing journey from Alaska to Oregon. Creating, designing, sewing, quilting, and wildcrafting... from my heart and with my hands.


Marilyn McLeod @ Pink Paper Cottage said...

Oh Michele, such words of wisdom that I need so much these days! I have felt very upset and disoriented and sick at heart with all the destruction that is going on... and I began feeling that way awhile before the eclipse happened. That eclipse has totally knocked me "off my rocker" so to speak! Much nervousness and anxiety I'm having, and worry, and like you said, that loss of control is very hard for me... I can't control what is happening in the world and our country right now, and it is really doing a number on me. Your words of wisdom in the last few paragraphs I'm going to print out and re-read many times.. I must go within myself and try to find the peace within me again. My psyche has totally been disrupted and I feel like Oregon is burning up to a crisp and I have no control. Thank you for your wonderful words... I cherish them... and will put them right by my computer to read over and over. It's funny.. but I've lately felt the need to get out my old sacks of fabric scraps that I've saved up for the last 42 years, thinking I'd make a strip quilt out of them... and I have done just that... I found them, dug them out of their bins where they have lived for so long, and have washed them all and sorted them! They are just waiting for me to begin a quilt.. maybe that creativeness will help me to go within myself and find some peace. Thank you again... lovingly... Marilyn

Michele Bilyeu said...

Bless you, Marilyn. You are, like many, many of us..a sensitive. We have faced incredible challenges, endured incredible pain. and feel so many emotions, anxieties, fears all swirling around both inside and outside of ourselves. But we, especially as women, have deep enduring strength abd in our hearts we sense this great power, great and knowing, intuitive abilities and bit by bit..we can bare and be all things..for ourselves and for others. Feel the love and caring being sent to and surrounding you for it is there ♥️

Miss Cranstons said...

Thank you for these inspiring words.

Michele Bilyeu said...

Thank you so very much!

Winifred said...

That is such a lovely and inspiring post Michele. I do hope things improve weatherwise for you, that smoke must be terrible and the destruction of the beautiful forests heartbreaking. I'm lighting a candle for you & remembering you in my prayers.

Michele Bilyeu said...

Winifred, that means the world to me! Bless you dear, dear friend ❣

Swift said...

This is the most beautiful, thoughtful, intelligent, kind, wise, inspiring essay that I have read in a very long time. Thank you.

Michele Bilyeu said...

Dearest Unknown, Thank you and bless you!!❤❤❤